Words Already Spoken

Watching the days burning out like a cigarette,
just a few drags to go
Just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things
to lie around
to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
because there's some thing's
I'd like to say to you...
I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So you couldn’t hurt me
All the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily.
And I try but I'm not convincing.
Your lips, they pout and twist.
And I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you.
And it takes more time than I've ever had.
Drains the life from me,
makes me want to forget.
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away.
And you know
I’m not one for complaining,
But I love the way you’d roll
excuses off the tip of your tongue
as I slowly fall apart
slowly, quietly, slowly
fall apart.
Well as for now
I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
Another day left waiting,
alone in my room with no calls from you.
So I call you up, but you let me down
This is to a [boy] who got into my head
with all these pretty things [he] did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
You see, it's never bad enough
to just leave or give up
but, it’s never good enough to feel right
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me
I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
It seems hard
As I try
To succumb once again
We’re moving forward, but holding ourselves back
And we’re waiting on something that will never come
This road to recovery
Has taken all I have.
Just forget me
it's that simple

(In this poem, I toyed with lines from my favorite emo/alternative songs. I like to reread it and try and remember which part came from which song.)