Stop…Don’t

Leave me alone
But not for long
Go away
But not too far
Why is it that I love you?
Why is it I cannot bring myself to hate you?
I want you
To leave my heart
I need you
To leave my mind
I can’t have you
Popping into my mind
Things are so complicated
I want things to be simple
Why does it look easy for you
And I’m barely making it
My heart aches for you
To just leave me be
What if I never met you
And why do I sometimes wish that?
What if I never called you that day
Would you still know my name?
What if I never kissed you
Would I still long for our lips to meet?
What if you never felt the same
Would I still be in torment?
This unnecessary torment.
Why must I feel like this?
Why must I put myself through this?
Is this necessary?
Even for love
You never seem to be in anguish
I keep telling myself
What I already know
Just to remember.
The words you said
When I no longer had to wonder
What goes on inside
Your head.
The words you said
When I no longer had to wonder
What goes on inside
Your heart.
The place that you’ve made for me
There.
So why am I distressed?
There is no reason
But there is
Time is not on our side
We don’t have long before
We go our separate ways
If things aren’t working out now
Who says things will be better
Then?
That is why I want you to leave
My heart.
That is why I need you to disappear
From my mind.
It will only make things easier
So…
Leave me alone
But not for long.
Go away
But not too far.
Let me start first,
I hate you
I just hope I don’t regret this…
Because I love you.